Hey guys. Wasn't too sure about what to write about so thought I'd just write what's on my mind.
Senior year has been pretty stressful and luckily I haven't had a breakdown yet. I've noticed that the more I dwell on things, the more I tend to worry about what could go wrong. A lot of these worries are usually driven by fear. Fear of failing or being "less than" what I want to be I guess. Thankfully I have a great cohort of people who have similar worries and stress, and don't make me feel so alone in all this.
I was watching a Ted Talk earlier called "Why comfort will ruin your life." I'll link it down below so you guys can give it a watch too. In the talk, the speaker Bill Eckstorm touches on comfortability and how it hinders our growth as people. He argues that "true growth can only occur in a state of discomfort." Oddly enough, it was comforting hearing about discomfort in such a positive way. He relates living in comfort to a goldfish living in a fishbowl. While the goldfish is safe inside the bowl, he's stagnant. No real change will ever occur, inside his environment or inside himself. Mind you, he's just a fish but I understood what the speaker was trying to say. Sometimes to establish a change internally, an external change must occur.
Senior year has been pretty stressful and luckily I haven't had a breakdown yet. I've noticed that the more I dwell on things, the more I tend to worry about what could go wrong. A lot of these worries are usually driven by fear. Fear of failing or being "less than" what I want to be I guess. Thankfully I have a great cohort of people who have similar worries and stress, and don't make me feel so alone in all this.
I was watching a Ted Talk earlier called "Why comfort will ruin your life." I'll link it down below so you guys can give it a watch too. In the talk, the speaker Bill Eckstorm touches on comfortability and how it hinders our growth as people. He argues that "true growth can only occur in a state of discomfort." Oddly enough, it was comforting hearing about discomfort in such a positive way. He relates living in comfort to a goldfish living in a fishbowl. While the goldfish is safe inside the bowl, he's stagnant. No real change will ever occur, inside his environment or inside himself. Mind you, he's just a fish but I understood what the speaker was trying to say. Sometimes to establish a change internally, an external change must occur.
Ted Talk | Bill Eckstorm
MOre.
For the past five months, my life has felt so unsteady. With tests, deadlines, applications, and internship: things have been ever-changing. Some days I feel so sure of my life, of myself, of what I'm doing. Other days are quite the opposite and I question if I've done this whole life thing all wrong. It's a push and pull between myself and really that's all it is: myself.
I'm my worst enemy most of the time. I put loads of pressure on myself to be something bigger than I already am. As if what I am now, isn't good enough. I measure myself to my goals and once I accomplish them I find bigger/grander goals to stress about. As a result, I'm on this hamster wheel of anxiety that never really ends. I'm never satisfied and it's a pretty silly characteristic once I see it all written out on here.
I'm my worst enemy most of the time. I put loads of pressure on myself to be something bigger than I already am. As if what I am now, isn't good enough. I measure myself to my goals and once I accomplish them I find bigger/grander goals to stress about. As a result, I'm on this hamster wheel of anxiety that never really ends. I'm never satisfied and it's a pretty silly characteristic once I see it all written out on here.
Final thoughts
I think a lot of people my age, feel a similar sort of pressure. In the past, hearing of millionaires and lavish living were these folk-tale like things that very few people actually saw/experienced.Today, because of social media, we are constantly swiping and seeing people our age in Lamborghinis and mansions. This millionaire lifestyle has become normalized and in turn, makes us wonder Why don't I have that?
Here are some tips that have helped me out lately and maybe can help you out too:
Here are some tips that have helped me out lately and maybe can help you out too:
tips
1. Be kind to yourself (even when you don't want to).
2. Start comparing yourself to the person you were yesterday, and not others and watch your whole life get better.
3. Trust in what you do, even if the 'why' isn't always crystal clear.
4. Put down your phone. (you're looking at other people's lives and missing yours)
5. Drink something hot. It helps. (tea, coffee,etc.)
Stay uncomfortable. It's a good thing.
---Gabriel xxx
2. Start comparing yourself to the person you were yesterday, and not others and watch your whole life get better.
3. Trust in what you do, even if the 'why' isn't always crystal clear.
4. Put down your phone. (you're looking at other people's lives and missing yours)
5. Drink something hot. It helps. (tea, coffee,etc.)
Stay uncomfortable. It's a good thing.
---Gabriel xxx